40 years ago

There appears to be war at home and at school. How can I cope? First, school. I told various people that I had written about them and told Spillers what I had written about him. He told me not to tell anyone else about it. Most boys - no girls - want to know what I put about them and I refused to say. * Anyway, Spillers has got the original tape of Bks 11 and 12 and some people are planning a raid on my bedroom to get my diaries. Are they mad? Of course they are. The "home" war. Mum is in a fit of rage. Yesterday I passed Rachel who was talking to Helen and she started to laugh. This laugh was incredibly similar to the one at the beginning of "Sensoria" so I sang it all day. Before school I told Newton that Brud was going to the 6th form party tonight. This caused Rachel to stare at me. Is she going with Kinny? One day I spent a free German lesson admiring her art work. Maybe she could design sleeves for records? Talking of records, Newton has said he will eat one o...

Remember The Teacher Files? Of course you don't because they were torn out by an angry teacher back in 1983. Well they now have a sequel - The Pupil Files. Inspired by degrading comments from Spillers and me. They shall mostly be about the present but with one or two dives into my past. Ok. Girls REDACTED Boys REDACTED * Now isn't there a song called "I'd rather go blind"? Well Newton and I did our tour of the school and we passed the teachers car park. I commented on my darkened glasses (I can't get used to them) and he said "So you didn't see Rachel and Kinny kissing on the steps?" I hadn't. We went round again and they were still there. Thanks to Suzanne for telling me to give up on her. ** ------ Not much else happened. Oh yes! There are people claiming that Melissa's friend Julie is fancied by Howard. I don't believe a word of it and neither does Howard. *** I might be on Bk 14 by the exams. "Oh no, what can we do?" (...

A large outcry about the deletion of my diary from almost all sides - except Rachel, who is probably silently glad that I'll stop. That's where you're wrong, my dear. Stanwell school may think my life in words comes to a grinding halt on December 4th but I know it isn't. * I hate Lesley. She said to me after History "You make me puke" which is what I would expect from her. Then she asks me in Physics for a book of my diary. Fuck off! I am working on a third verse for "Fond regards..." ** Music world eruptions. Holey wants to buy a guitar. That could rule him out of any possible band I form. *** Brud's band are getting together again on Saturday so I'll do my tape technician bit. Should be good for a laugh. Neil Walker said he had read one of my earlier diaries (bk 4 by my reckoning) and said on every page there was a mention of Debbie and an OMD lyric. Quite true! I'm having a packed lunch tomorrow**** cos Haggy is giving us a lunch time ...

Well, I know now who my friends are! Thanks to Huw Thomas and Howard for the safe keeping of this book. No thanks to Newton, Luty, Rhiannon, Alison and Rachel, oh and Beverley * I am returning to my old depressive self again. Thanks to Rhiannon, Bev, Alison and especially Rachel. She and Kinny were doing their usual thing and walked off together in total bliss ** "The return of Deborah Carr". Bev says that Debbie will be staying at hers soon. The common joke now is "Look Rob, there's a car!" Newton reckons I'm jealous of Kinny. He could be right.  Yet more utterly wrong rumours that I fancy Melissa Fisher (No I don't), I fancy Rhiannon (No I don't) I fancy Alison. (No I don't) I have been promised by Brud that I can record his "band" when they next practice. Should be a real riotous cacophony! --------- I sit right at the front of Haggy's room now (since the middle of form 3 I've sat at the back ***) so when she goes into a fit ...

Title for entry - "Robert Morgan Dies" God I'm glad to be alive. More on that later. Not much happened in school as usual. I hadn't done some homework and thought I'd get killed for it. Hence the title. As usual, saw Rachel, as usual, with Kinny, as usual, arm in arm around school. While on the subject of school, the rumour about me fancying Alison is spreading. I have denied it because I don't fancy her and I know she doesn't fancy me. I think it was started by Jeremy Hall.* Now to the main topic. Going home from school I was walking with Jez Hall, Mumford and Cooper. When we came to cross Victoria Road I stopped and the others ran across the road. I shouted "Trying to get run over, are you?" I then looked around and ran across but didn't see a car coming from my right. It braked hard, blew its horn and I only just dodged it. "Bloody hell, I survived" I think to myself. According to witnesses - the above people - it was only a few ...

Just when I was getting sick of thousands of identical versions of "The way we were* I find a brilliant instrumental version with an even better synth - or organ - solo. * Had a lovely curry at an Indian restaurant last night. Luckily Brud stayed at home so the seat opposite me was vacant and I kept imagining things and I missed out on the mushroom bhaji. ** The weather was even worse last night. There was one flash of lightning just as I started a tape and I thought I'd wrecked something so I switched off. It was about 12:30am anyway. The perverse sense of humour strikes again. Why not write to Debbie? *** Another IBM tape is in the pipeline. I'm editing down tracks for IBM T5. ---------- Footnotes  * "The way we were" was an utterly shit song. There's a version of it on "Learns to dance".  ** As far as I can tell, the Indian restaurant we went to is still there, by Penarth train station. *** Spoiler alert. I didn't. 

The perfect "Love and hate" song Underneath the spreading chestnut tree I loved you, you hated me What a happy couple we should be Pity it will never come to be --------- Yet more sightings of the young loves arm in arm. I was in the library - for no apparent reason - with Holey at break time and Rachel passed causing me to make a small squeaking noise and bury my head under arms.  I really shouldn't be so cruel to Rachel. My brother is annoying me very much. I shouted at him about ten minutes ago "There is one thing I hate the most in this world and it's you". Could be a good line in a lyric. Playlist  "Zoolook" - Jean Michel Jarre  "In concert" - OMD live tape * "Somersault of love" - Perfect Vision ** "White trash" and "She's leaving" (from OMD live tape) and "Isolation" by Joy Division remind me of Rachel. The weather is worse than yesterday. I gave Newton IBM T2 Who cares? --------- Footnot...

Welcome back! The time is 12:35pm. * Today - this morning - it was really pouring down with rain and I didn't have an umbrella so I got soaked. Well Rachel had an umbrella and asked me if I wanted to go under it but I refused. Silly me! Well I didn't because I would a) not knowing what to do or say and b) be shit scared. Everyone is calling me mad because I didn't accept her offer. Sorry Rachel. Also Bev says to me "You lied to me cos you DO fancy Jackie" which is NOT true! There is also a very strange rumour that I fancy Alison. I don't, ok? ** ----------- Welcome back! The time is 5pm. I have told Jackie that I don't fancy her and not to believe any rumours. *** Rachel looked lovely today  **** -------- Footnotes. * So it's being written in school then... ** Just to clarify, no I didn't fancy Alison. *** That must have been a fun conversation. "No I don't fancy you, with all that that implies". **** Probably because she didn't l...

According to Howard, Luty fancies Michelle Dear. Hahaha. * "I heard her call my name" - The Velvet Underground, 1967. Hagyard** called us - her Maths class - back during break to tell us not to be so... Well she said we were the worst class she'd ever had *** Yesterday she collected our books in and we weren't allowed to go until she called out our name from the pile of books. (Hence the title of this paragraph). She called mine and I left. Therefore I saw no real reason to go back. If it happens again Hazel can go screw herself. Both sides of the Tangerine Dream album "Ricochet" Remind me of "she who walks home with Kinny". Talking of Kinny, were we? Looking through the MFL programme (yet again) I looked under "singers and dancers" and - surprise surprise - there's Richard Kynaston. So that's how "true love" starts.  ---------- Footnotes * Don't know why this is so funny  ** Hazel Hagyard, spinster and Maths teacher...